At the age of 17 I had only had one experience of being drunk and it was horrible but I had encountered alcohol multiple times with no problem and being high was like being me without regret. I had never, though, experienced both at the same time. And in hindsight a party was probably not the best place to test these waters, but that was how it happened.
I woke up in the late afternoon, while watching TV in my mom's living room there was a knock at the door. It was Sarah's mom and she was standing there wide eyes, ear to ear grin holding a white Styrofoam cup. "Drink this" she says shoving it in my face. I grab it and eye the electric yellow liquid slush in the cup skeptically. "It's a margarita, taste it tell me if I did a good job" I drink some "it's too tart, not enough alcohol either" She says OK, spins around on the ball of her foot and leaves, her long hair trailing behind her. I finish the drink. She comes back at least 5 more times. More ice, less ice, more mix, less mix, more alcohol, less alcohol. Each time I am left with a glass and I finish it. Once I tell her it's fine she invites me to a party at her house for Sarah's daughter later in the evening, I say OK. I head over to Jonathan's and they are already smoking. I tell him about the party and he tells me Sarah came over and invited him already and jokes he was gonna go without me. We smoke and get ready.
Once we get there I can tell Sarah doesn't really want me there but I don't care. Even though it's a party for a one year old there is no one under the age of 17 and everyone is drunk, smoking or upstairs doing something far worse. I stay in the kitchen helping her crazy mom and listening to her stories. Every drink she makes I try and Jonathan knows I'm drunk when I grab his beer out of his hand and chug it. He tells me to sit down but I run away laughing. This guy asks me to dance and even though no else is I start to in the middle of the room. Jonathan shakes his head at me and goes outside to smoke. I see Sarah follow him. "Hell No!" Is what goes through my head. I walk out to Sarah standing dangerously close to him and him saying "I already got a girl." "But she doesn't know what she has." says Sarah coyly. I clear my throat and Sarah jumps but doesn't move an inch. Jonathan grabs me and purposely kisses me extra long simultaneously moving me in between them. "I was just telling Johnny how you guys owe me for introducing you two." I want to jump out of my skin and beat her ass, I'm the only one he allows to call him that and she knows it. "Jonathan" he corrects her. That stung her, I can see it in her eyes, she turns and walks back inside. "Stop leaving me alone, it's getting hard to fight off these bitches." He jokes and tries to grab my hand but it's clenched in a fist. "Ya Calmate" he tells me. My blood is boiling but it's time for cake. I eat some and start doing shots. I see that Sarah has taken the seat closest to Jonathan and I down them faster. It's time for presents and Sarah plops her skinny ass next to Jonathan on the couch. I sit on the other side of him, he whispers in my ear to switch seats with him I do and Sarah moves to the other side of him. She opens the presents and I keep drinking Jonathan's beers. Once the presents are over she places her hand on Jonathan's leg and says RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE "She's drunk Johnny she won't remember." He says "I won't smack a bitch but she will" And with that I lunge for her but Jonathan is quicker than I am and as quickly as I fly across his lap he has me over his shoulder. "Give me that fucking bitch! I'll tear your ass up!" I scream as I kick and punch while he's hauling my ass to the bathroom. Jonathan sets me down on the toilet and I immediately shove him into the wall and run for the door. I am screaming every obscenity in the book. Jonathan hooks his arm around my waist and braces himself by grabbing the edge of the sink with his other hand. "Let me take you home" He pleads. "No! I'm gonna kill her!" "I know you will, that's why we need to go home." Sarah opens the bathroom door "Do you need me to help you carry her home?" "BIIIITTTCCHH!" I scream but Jonathan has thrown me on the ground and is sitting on me. "Don't you understand where you're not fucking wanted?!" he yells at her. "Drunk or not Johnny I'll kick her ass, please let me go" "I know" he says but I'm so enraged and so drunk I've started sobbing. His brother and friend Shawn keep Sarah upstairs and I agree to go home but as soon as Jonathan open his front door I bolt back for Sarah's house. He runs after me and Sarah closes her front door. "Fuck this!!!" I yell and go and lay down in the middle of the street. "What in the fuck are you doing?!" He says coming after me, he drags me kicking and screaming to his house. Right before we walk into his front door I throw up in his bushes. He carries me upstairs and puts me in the shower, clothes and all. Once he's washed me and got me into some clean clothes he tucks me in his bed. I cover my mouth with my hand and he quickly brings a trashcan up to my face. I throw up then fall backward onto the pillow. He kisses me. "That is sooo disgusting!" I say in a hoarse voice. "You'd do it for me" "True" I say and pass out.
*Originally written January 11th 2012
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