A Little About Me

 I am...

strong

confident

loud

fun, and on most occasions quite funny

beautiful

kind hearted

wise

I am a great woman to know

I am all these things and more, yet somehow over these past five years I have become a diluted, jaded version of myself.

I have become...

the product of a physically abusive mother, a sexually abusive step-father, an emotionally unavailable father  and (for lack of a better

word) an immature step-mother.

Worn down by not one, not two but three abusive relationships.

I'm unraveling, breaking down, the pressure is building and I am imploding. But I no longer want to be a woman defined, rather than refined, by my past. The problem is I don't know where the turning point was. Where I lost her, the girl I used to be. But I'm hoping if I get it all out, it will all fall back into place... somewhere along the way. 

 

*Originally written January 12th 2012